"The worst lies are the lies we tell ourselves. We live in denial of what we do, even what we think. We do this because we're afraid. We fear we will not find love, and when we find it we fear we will lose it. We fear that if we do not have love we will be unhappy" - Richard Bach
I have just been through the worst time of my life. I found love and lost it...! All I said to the girl who loved me all the time, was a bunch of lies...all the way long. But in the process, I became so engrossed in all this, that I forgot that it all comes back...in this very life...!!! So it was just a matter of time when this house of cards was to fall...and so it happened today...!!! I am sad...yes...but happy, at the same time because I feel that what should have happened much earlier, finally happened...!
I know that in all those lies, there was ONE truth which was and will always be a TRUTH...! I really loved her (and still do) and always wanted (and still do) to be with her...!!! But then, when she asked me, "Is this what you do to people whom you love?" then I had no answer...I was as dumb as a rock...! I am guilty of committing this sin, not once, not twice, not thrice, but again and again and again...and I am already being punished as the girl, who unselfishly loved me, wanted to be with me, was ready to change herself just for me...and wanted just one thing from me - she wanted to be happy with me and I could not give her even that much...all I gave her was pain and sadness. I have learnt my lesson...unluckily too late though...!
Through this post, I just want to tell everyone just one thing - If you love someone, then take care of them and they can make your life heaven with love and happiness...! And never lie to someone you love, as love and lie don't really live together...! I learned it the hard way...I hope you all can learn it just in time and make your special ones believe that they hold a special place in your heart...!
