Bye bye 2011...it's (finally) time to say good bye to you...! Welcome 2012

If I recap my experiences in 2011, I am sure I have all the ingredients for a platinum-hit Bollywood movie. It has been a roller-coaster of a year (to say the least). Had a breakup (right at the 1st week of January 2011), somehow got over it, met another girl...was very happy with her...but then lied about things to her and our relationship got worse, then finally when I was sincerely making efforts to improve myself and when I thought that we both were making progress to get together, then I found that she was cheating on me... (sounds funny now, but it has been insanely frustrating and dramatic...!). Till 23rd November (my last post), I was very happy since I felt that 2011 would at least end on a good note...but then, I am not one deciding my fate (as Shakespeare would say: "I hold the world but as the world, Gratiano, A stage, where every man must play a part; And mine a sad one.")...and indeed mine was a sad one (at least in 2011). This year had a lot for me to learn...mostly the hard way...but then what we learn the hard way, possibly (and hopefully) stays longer with us. I am sure what I have learned this year, will stay with me for the rest of my life.

But being truly human, I believe that none of us is perfect and we all make mistakes. But, at the same time, being an eternal optimist, I believe in myself that I can get over my mistakes and make sure not to repeat those. Coming year, I have loads of plans, just to keep me busy and make sure that I feel better about myself. I want to travel to places, where I have never been or probably will never go either (once back in India), get going with my hobbies and interests and just keep myself busy. So I have to enjoy the coming year, be happy and keep learning (even if it is the hard way).

Yesterday, I was thinking of my motto for 2012 and I can put it up as below:

"Welcome 2012...it can only get better from here on...! Let go what was never mine and mend my present to make sure my future is happier. Live every moment this year as if there is no tomorrow...who knows maybe Nostradamus and Mayans might be right about 2012...!!!"

Stay happy and stay blessed...and welcome 2012 with both hands. Wishing a very happy New Year to all.............................

It all comes back...in this life...!!!

"The worst lies are the lies we tell ourselves. We live in denial of what we do, even what we think. We do this because we're afraid. We fear we will not find love, and when we find it we fear we will lose it. We fear that if we do not have love we will be unhappy" - Richard Bach


I have just been through the worst time of my life. I found love and lost it...! All I said to the girl who loved me all the time, was a bunch of lies...all the way long. But in the process, I became so engrossed in all this, that I forgot that it all comes back...in this very life...!!! So it was just a matter of time when this house of cards was to fall...and so it happened today...!!! I am sad...yes...but happy, at the same time because I feel that what should have happened much earlier, finally happened...!


I know that in all those lies, there was ONE truth which was and will always be a TRUTH...! I really loved her (and still do) and always wanted (and still do) to be with her...!!! But then, when she asked me, "Is this what you do to people whom you love?" then I had no answer...I was as dumb as a rock...! I am guilty of committing this sin, not once, not twice, not thrice, but again and again and again...and I am already being punished as the girl, who unselfishly loved me, wanted to be with me, was ready to change herself just for me...and wanted just one thing from me - she wanted to be happy with me and I could not give her even that much...all I gave her was pain and sadness. I have learnt my lesson...unluckily too late though...!


Through this post, I just want to tell everyone just one thing - If you love someone, then take care of them and they can make your life heaven with love and happiness...! And never lie to someone you love, as love and lie don't really live together...! I learned it the hard way...I hope you all can learn it just in time and make your special ones believe that they hold a special place in your heart...!